MeMoRiEs

2009-04-24T02:42:00.006+08:00

it aint important anymore le.
i dun hav the motivation to blog in here.
im jus going to change a new blog address.

sigh~ all i get are disappointment.
i hate all these!
love is all about playing ard =)

i dunno how u can do it.

y guys can easily go find and get to know other girls

straight after they have broken with their gf?!

within jus a day after break, go n attract attention

& telling the whole world that they are single and available?

dont they feel sad at all?!

NO THEY DONT!

they dont feel sad when they've lost their loved ones.

DONT TAKE ME FOR GRANTED!

2009-04-11T02:28:00.002+08:00

i'm back!!
reached spore ard 12 midnight..
jus reached hme and blogging.
well, it's a great experience in hong kong.
but had lots of happenings too for these few days.
sigh~

anw, im really touched to see somethings from someone.
i can see his seriousness tis time round.
but i jus dunno y these few days like draw him n her closer tgt.
everyday had been chatting..
=( hais.. im really v jealous when i hear this.

i went to macau too.
hahahhaas!
and freaking lose money..
damn~

the products there are exclusively expensive.
like not much difference from sg.
so well, didnt really buy alot of things back.
eat alot.
and photos alot.
not forgetting walk alot.

went disneyland hong kong too.
ocean park,
woman street & men street,
see buddha,
tried lots of their food,
sit cable car,
went to maddam tsuessae (i dunno how to spell),
experience the peak tram to very high mountain
& see the whole of hk scenery at the peak.
saw eason chen for his autograph session.

Lots of photos to upload..
maybe few days later ba,
coz right now im still stuck wif the air pressure in my ear,
due to the flight.

17th april i might be going bintan wif my sis,
so sorry mich coz i dun think im able to attend ur bday bbq.
a note for u in case u got pass by my blog.
Thanks~

2009-04-02T03:15:00.003+08:00

two and a half year le..

i cant imagine how far we've been thru..
sometimes, somethings, some facts i cant take it,
some reality i cant accept it.

but i had a great talking wif u..
its gd if u hav cherish me earlier,
its gd if u hav woke up from ur silly mistakes earlier.
nothing will happen if u r serious earlier.
nothing will happen if u did not go into navy.
nothing will happen if u need not sail to thailand.

fuk everything.
i hate it.
but i love u still =)

smelly smelly..

2009-03-30T02:53:00.003+08:00

in less than 7 days and im flying off to hong kong!!
oh man i jus cant wait..
=) =) =)

dim sum, disneyland and shopping!!!! =D

too bad, he didnt follow..
go to ur genting ba..
i got ask but u jus cant take a whole 5days off..
two bats.. hahahahhaas!

i guess hk is cold season right now.
shall pack my luggage soon within this week.

went amk jus now & had dinner.
had heartfelt talk out wif him.
wanted to let go le..
he cant stand it & i also cant accept it.
well, but time will tell all..

time will tell if those words which u've told me in ecp r true.
=)

2009-03-29T02:45:00.004+08:00

im very sick.
bodyache.
flu and fever.
='(
sneezing had become part of my favourite pastime for past 2 days.

got pay for IT fair jus now at bishan park,
and a mini celebration & lucky draw.
take picture and left.

last monday went to lotte's bday chalet.
didnt stay over coz fen was sick.

went swimming for one the days in the week.

oh ya and a meet up wif wen, ek & bee.
went aston to hav dinner and our chattings & shopping. =)

i noe im not pretty as her.
i dun go club and drink wif other guys.
y cant u jus appreciate me a little more.
im jus too upset & jealous, to hear u saying she's pretty!
im really really very unhappy & sad abt it!

2009-03-19T16:17:00.002+08:00

ytd went out shopping.
bugis to town.
had lunch at sakae sushi.
met up wif fen, lotte, fen's two frenz and hh.
in fact its becoz they wan to pay application fee.
bought shoes.
three of us each get a pair of shoes.
lols..
hh is so nice to carry our shopping bags ard.
had dinner and parted wif lotte.
went home wif hh,
pass him psp and hme sweet hme. =)

-别再为他流泪-

2009-03-18T11:25:00.002+08:00

by staying faithful and loving only u wholeheartedly,

u didnt appreciate or cherish me at all.

taking me for granted.

to all girls out there,:
next time when u hav bf,
do not stick to one,
pls flirt and fling ard,
go hug other guys and jus treat as u dun hav bf at all.

=)

ytd, hh...
ask nothing but jus ask me where i am,
& he rushed down without even putting on his contact lens.
bought me ice cream and choco.
console me and pei wo..
until he send me back hme safely then he left.
actually, im kinda =)

2009-03-15T01:27:00.003+08:00

blogged.

IT Fair is tiring man!

tml is the last day to go..

chiong chiong chiong sales!

=)

more money to hong kong trip!!

hahhahaas....

count down less than 3 weeks to hong kong!! =D

WELCOME TO HONG KONG!

humphts! someone ought to fetch me hme tml.

**my legs r breaking and my back is aching**

think i old already la.

2009-03-02T03:05:00.005+08:00

it marks the end of it le.

gd bye~

someone pls hug me and
tell me that i am gonna be fine.

how worst can my life b..
for the past few months,
i seem to b living in a world of dream.
everything so sweet,
looks so true,
but its all fake ones.

the love and care shower on me,
it seems so real,
but jus to put on an act for me to let go.

wat a joke heaven is giving me.

whether i let go first,
or u let go first,
i can tell u, it makes no difference.
it weighs the same kg of sadness and hurt.

i fear to love again,
coz i will fall high..

thanks for the lesson learnt.
u're being so mean to me.
i hate u!

saw rt on friday at cineleisure.
well, he changed alot,
the smile is still so charming.
hahahaha..

let me end this blog with some words to say,
im going to abandon this blog le.
since it is no longer meaningful to it.

this blog is to set up to,
mark and filled wif both of our happiness,
sadness and quarrels.
i knew when i blog, u will read.
but i doubt so now u will b coming in to read le
and i could not bring myself
to write anything to it alr
so well, bye my dear 3 yrs lovely diary..

u gave me so much memories when
i read back all my posts way back to 2006.
=)
so sweet and yet i could not forget it.

*loves*

to you, take some effort to read this k =)

2009-02-26T23:18:00.001+08:00

无言以对如果会后悔
就该学会在爱的时候
用智慧盖一座堡垒
收藏你的美

一进一退流过的眼泪
不算白费谎言和是非
有点累心痛只在回味

月光下我们走过的那条街
当时的手还牵得那么直接
是你不再留恋还是美好终究善变

月光下回忆在我身边穿越
你会不会残留着那感觉
熟悉的体温留下的指纹
别过问

那天凝视你的双眼不说一句的吻你的脸
喔~
谁的出现打断了永远。。

2009-02-26T03:50:00.001+08:00

insecured. sigh.
very broke.
i need money! =(

2009-02-23T02:18:00.003+08:00

v long didnt update blog..

well, im here to blog again.

busy with final presentation lately,

had my final presentation on 18th feb,

& now officially graduated from NP!

hahahaha!!

ok i think i will miss poly life.

coz its the start of working life le.

& till now i still cant get a job.

well but i'm working IT show on mar.

have lotte acc me for the job.

it gonna be fun.

heex..

movies & dota with my poly mates aft presentation.

caught bride wars and pink panter 2 last week.

i still hav one more movie coupon discount.

mus faster faster use finish.

& of coz dota-ing sessions wif BF and wen jie.

they will always play wif AI whenever im in e game.

hahaha coz im a noob.

lunch-ed at sembawang aston.

daiso, giant and home.

tml's another day, gym in sch.

well, i was looking in my wardrobe.

& i saw something which determine me to lose weight.

becoz of this, i WAN to JIAN FEI!

hahahaha

jog jog jog, pls burn away my fats and calories!

i'm so determined, to slim down!

all the best for ur RTT.

LOVES^!

2009-02-14T16:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

=))

yesterday went out wif poly peeps..
went rounding and eye opening..
to geylang and mustafa to look see..

hahahaha..

had aston at JE for dinner and
nice ice cream at old gan eng sng sec sch..
great world city, pasir ris E hub and pasir ris park.
supper and home.

i gtg alr..
dating.. ahaha..
=) *i love surprises*
but no flowers pls.. lols

2009-02-13T03:21:00.009+08:00

tml going out wif lotte, glenn and jk..

dunno where they going to head to.
but i noe i have to get prepare b4 2.30pm,
then fetch jk
& evening will b meeting lotte.

valentine's day on coming saturday.
i'm so looking forward each yr,
but tis yr kinda not looking forward to.
too many things happen le..
haix..

i really dun understand..
having a me, he does not satisfy.
my good i treat him, he does not appreciate.

last yr attachment,
i was telling my supervisor that,
he is going to sail to thailand on Jan 09'
she loves to teach me things in life,
finding a bf,
the criteria and
marriage..
she told me this: "he going thailand, u mus really be careful of him, guy will usually go there and find girl, especially if the company he mix wif are those experience in it"

i was scared,
but i told myself to hav confidence in him.
sigh~
in the end this is wat i get.

i jus cant stop staring at the bloody hell photo.
it really makes me mad.
it jus spoil all my mood.

sorry for grumbling here,
coz this is the only place which i can pour all out.

i feel sad when after i read Frankie's blog,
and yah,
U started off my yr 2009 wif an unpleasant one,
a bad chinese new yr u given to me,

i used to be very happy,
coz he sail so many countries,
he can get lots of things for me in different countries,
but i really dont expect he brought this another girl back to spore.
ARGH!

I NEED HONESTY!
I NEED THE TRUTH!

I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!

LISTEN UP: "I REALLY DO HATE THIS!"

bad things do really happen.
pls do not trust ur guy too easily.
pls head my advice.

*i really do need my slp
*when will the nightmare disappear?
*when will the sight of the photo can fcuk off in my brain
*when will i forgive u?
*when will i ever hav the trust in u back
*i need to stop all my endless nights
*how can our relationship be last?

='( hais..
Can somebody hug me and tell me everything's gonna be fine?

2009-02-11T23:49:00.003+08:00

u said sorry.
u said i'm naggy.
u said u're telling me lies jus to shut me up.
u said u promise u wont lie to me le.
u said u r not gd enuff for me.
u said u doesnt deserve to hav me.
u said jus believe u.
u said dun ask anymore.
u said u create a bad image to my mindset le.

so y do u want to hurt me in the first place?
so y do u start all these nonsense in e first place?
so y do u take away ur gd image in e 1st place?

one thing for sure which u had done well tis time,
which is u rejected ALL her means of communication.

but still i hate u..
yet loving u still..
sigh~

TO YOU BITCH: PLS STEP
BACK!

2009-02-09T23:06:00.004+08:00

Hav he really found back what is lacking between us?
so wat exactly is the problem between us?
feelings is gone, but within a day can get back ma?

i choose to believe him,
but do he gurantee in the future,
things lik tis wont happen again?
does he ba ga wif jie on how to answer me
when i call and ask?
did he plan beforehand ma?

yah, thai seng is right..
we cant hang there in the air..
there need to be a solution,
a decision,
and an answer..

someone is reading my blog,
but did not even leave any comment huh..
used to leave comment one,
but now also never le lor..
times changed..
you should know who i am refering to..
hahaha..

*searching for answer which i know i could never get*

2009-02-07T16:23:00.003+08:00

tears, teared..

can anyone tell me how to forget someone?
i have another new friend..

he told me not to place so much hope on him.
shuwen, now i know y u said that le.
not to place so much hope on him le.

i dunno if he will be back.
but i noe i will wait.
wait till he found it back.

i felt so much relieved after this heart to heart talking,
although it is a hurtful reality.

thanks all my beloved friends who stay by me,
ever since it happened.
all the Mahjong session, poker session,
rounding to let me peace down,
go changi V and changi airport.
those who keep me companion and listen to my crys,
listen to all my sorrows,
all who advice me and console me,
all who cheer me up (although deep down i still cant recover)

thanks alot..
i hope qin ling will recover fast,
after her words,
it really make me wake up.
i'll be strong.
and ling, u will too.
*hugs*

2009-02-02T13:07:00.008+08:00

what can i say, when words cant make it better?
what do i do,
when i cant forgive myself for what ive done?
where can i go when memories are tearin' me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?

how can i hope, when everything is hopeless?
why do i try, when nothing i can do will bring you back
why do i dry, my crying eyes when i know the tears will start?
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?

you only ever treated me so kind
must of been stupid outta my mind
to believe ur words one to many times

where can i go when memories are tearin me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?

how can i have messed it up so bad?
thrown away everything we had
looked in the mirror dont know who i am

what can i say when words cant make it better
what do i do when i cant forgive myself for what ive done?
where can i go when memories are tearin' me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?

why do i dry, my crying eyes when i know the tears will start?
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?

this song really explains it all
i really dunno wat to say,
but read the lyrics and understand my feelings.
maybe it doesnt matter to u anymore,
but im sure believe time will heal myself.
i will change my blog when i really can put u down.
dun worry, i wont ever nag at u le.
how can all our ups and downs had jus gone down to waste.
3yrs jus flew away..
its not short u noe..

all the happy moments, sad moments,
*from cycling to singapore flyers to esplanade,
to swimming times to our food hunting session,
to sentosa to queueing of donuts,
*eat market food when we r poor, eat good food when we get our salary.
*i tried all means to learn the recipe of baking cakes,
i put all my effort to bake a cake during our one yr anniversary,
save and shrimp to get u a watch during our 2 yr anniversary.
*how many anniversary, christmas, birthdays which we had celebrated tgt?
*how u wipe my tears for me
*how u hug me when im down
*how u be wif me when i feel sad
*how u go beach wif me when i feel like going
*how u protect me when other ppl bully me in gpp
*how u piggyback me
*how this blog filled with so much of our happenings

sigh..

U tell me b4, navy...
if ur gf can stick to you till u ord,
u all can get marry..
ur future is there..
and can be stable..
im really naive.
when its actually u who had given up on me.
instead of cherish me.
ur msges, ur words are all lies.

i hate my handphone,
why dont u jus help me to delete all the msges in my k750i when u r using it?!
maybe u jus delete it and i wont be so upset now,
to read ur promises u given me from the start,
and our future down the road,
you said u will be wif me,
although u go sailing, we r apart, but our hearts is not apart.
yet u can lie to me one after another.
behind my back to be so close wif this thai girl when u noe her thru sailing.
how can u actually take photo wif her?!
and not only that, thru the photo, it can tells it all,
how close u two can be..
if normal stranger and friend, photo taken is not so close tgt.
im really shocked and dunno what to do when i saw that.
i teared and almost went crazy.
OUR HEARTS ARE NOT APART?!
ITS ALL RUBBISH!

can u imagine how heartless u are?!
i as a gf patiently awaiting u to come back each time u went sailing,
go thru everything myself.
i didnt even flirt other guys or strangers.

u treated me so unfair.
u didnt even think of my feelings b4 u act.
u didnt understand me.
u didnt even put myself into ur shoes.

i really do cherish our relationship and love u alot.

many ppl say ns will change a guy,
in terms of character and maturity,
but in my eyes, u changed really alot,
u used to treat me real nice and sweet.
how come things will happen till tis way?
u also tell me b4 when u went in ns,
if one day in the future,
u had changed, pls tell u about it and what changes had u made.
even i tell u in time, you had already scolded me.
so how do u giv me an opportunity
to tell u and explain to u even simple things?

='(

how come wen jie they all so faithful to gf?
how come u cant?
how come u need to make friends with other strangers?
how come u jus thought of me?
how come u have me already still not enough?

i really chim xin already.
u broke my trust for u once and again.
u make me even fear more.
i really thought u r a nice guy.
but u prove me wrong.

cajevol-evryday.blogspot.com,
i will remove away one day down the road,
when i've forgotten about u..
its useless to even leave this blog name here.
this blog name which u had asked me to set up,
love.jac-evryday
i wont be so foolish le..
nothing ever worth for me to remember when u r wang en fu yi

thanks for teaching me so much things
keep reminding me not to get bully,
but ended up its u who bully me wif tears flow.

2009-02-01T01:22:00.004+08:00

Photos -cny 09' and ytd his ship DND-

the theme for ytd is: Masquerade
where all of us need to choose ur own masks and wear

i jus find its so hard to wear the mask and smile. LOL..
it was a fun night at M hotel.
Initially, i was nervous to meet so many of his ship ppl.
But he break the ice and intro me to everyone.
The videos they displayed on the RIMPAC
somehow let me realised 4 months had come thus far..
an important understanding from families, and gfs..
Eating of banana with wasabi game which he was sabo to play..

its like a nightmare to me~

yes, i admit i'm demanding.
yes i admit i'm stubborn.
yes, i admit i will not trust u again.
yes, i admit i throw temper.
yes, i admit i'm ridiculous.

but pls do not say i show no respect to ur mum.
& pls dont say i bear grudges (JI CHOU).

other couple having problems its either each party has flaws in the girl or the boy.
but between us, its an invisible mirror which is separating both of us.
wat can i do?
wat will the future to be like?
sigh~

i'm hearing other ppl telling me how gd their bf's mother can b..
i'm hearing other ppl telling me how they going each other hse to bai nian..
dont u think i want?

i know u r tired handling all these sandwhich which stands in between.
initially thai tell me: when u r at the lowest point,
i should go thru thick and thin wif u and overcome ur family problems.
who dont have family problems?
i also do hav family problems..
and of coz being a gf, i really think that i'm the world's best understanding gf alr..
i did all i can..
swollow all my sadness..
swollow all my (wei qu)..
swollow my pride to even be wif u although those hurtful words which someone said to me.
i believe not all girls will do it.

well, i did all that and be wif u until all ur family problems had solved.
now u r turning back to tell me i show no respect to ur mum,
when thing goes better between u n her.
btw, i did not even bother to quarrel wif her anymore.
if i bear grudges, i would hav flare up on all those words she said to me.

haiz.. this is wat i get back for all the things i can done as a gf..
y cant u show more understanding to me?
y cant u put urself into my shoes?
y cant u jus placed me into a more important role in ur life?
y cant u jus be honest wif me for everything u have done wrong?
y mus u wait till some things which i've found out the truth then u admit?

its becoz i really love u and spend my rest of my life wif u,
to have goals in our future,
and to work towards it.

i really love the times when u woo me..
the period of time is so sweet and memorable.

ok, u need to take a rest, i respect ur decision.
i said b4, i will do all means to salvage the relationship.
but, a broken vase will not mend if there is a crack there.

i realise something and tell myself something
"a relationship doesnt matter with the quantity but the quality"
no matter how long the relationship is,
but it is being ruined by other external factors,
the quality is zero.

2009-01-30T13:23:00.003+08:00

dear's ship dinner later..

have to get prepare le =D

take pictures later..

Heex..

2009-01-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

happy cny everyone~ :)

reunion dinner with family jus now..
dear came to join us..
i jus realised something...
one time is a lesson learnt,
second time is a habit,
third time is bo bian,
fourth time will be xi guan,
fifth time is no hope,
sixth time is wu yao ke jiu le..

i understand the lesson learnt,
Once bitten, Twice shy,
Third time is to take cautious,
Fourth is non-forgivable..

i'm so disappointed..
the start of cny had already allow me to lose trust in u le.
never knew u've changed..
i cant bring myself to trust you easily le.
i tot the second time you told me that,
you wanna be honest with me thats y you told me the truth.
but yet, indeed what i'd guess is correctly.
you covered up somethings but tell me some truth.
sigh~

nice one :)
truly i thank you.
for being so dishonest to me.
i know whatever i nag or say to you,
you treat it as er bian feng.
i dun need and bother to comment anything le.

you can feel it,
you know it can le..

i feel my position in you.
a little tiny place,
which you even bother to be honest with me.

can i ask all the guys,
is it so difficult to have the little honesty between a relationship?
there are some of my guy friends who told me this b4..
"you must have at least some mutal understanding and trust in your guy"
but pls tell me how am i going to have it,
when in the first place you guy disappoint me
and broke the even last trust i have in you?

2009-01-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

this week, nothing much...
just su juan and su jing's 21st bday @ aloha loyang

the girls..

& my dumb dumb.. he had been sailing away for long

tis yr i dun really get to see him man..

hopefully 17th jan faster come =)

lastly, 2 more weeks =DDD
i jus cant wait to count down to the last day of attachment.
i miss him...

2009-01-04T23:25:00.010+08:00

had been very busy for the past few days and weeks..

finally attachment is coming to an end..

2008 was a super bad luck yr for me and my family..

sigh... ever since chinese new yr, bad happenings,

aunt-in-law and my beloved uncle passed away..

one after another.

it brings alot of grief to us..

the pain and misses couldnt explain.

the super hard months to pass.

From may till sept,

dear's sailing away for many months..

the last semester in sch,

the last exams and common tests,

the slackness in the last semester of poly life.

the times of sentosa on every saturdays,

without fail for a period of time,

beach volley ball =)

all the new persons who step into my life.

all the happiness as well as the sadness,

will be all kept in 2008.

i really hope 2009 will be a better yr.

2009 new yr resolutions*

gd health for my family members and me
success in career and studies
saved more money
become slimer and taller
a wonderful bday spend on my 21st bd =)
no quarrels and reduce my temper

Just last friday, had a bd celebration

with my 3 other darlings, my besties.

they bake me a cheese cake =D

heex.. had an enjoyable night wif them.

initially wanted to hav dinner at aston,

BUT! the queue is super long.

so we ate sushi instead.

chatted.

well, i had to cheers to our so many yrs friendship.

with lots of ups and downs.

the long overdue photos...

oh man, i really dunno where they get my this nerd photo.

the best bday card which i mention that i've ever received.

i was shocked though. hahahas!

thanks alot babes =)) muacks*

all the bday wishes from all of them =))

This below is the most touched part. i jus dunno y. lols

my dear gave me a braclet and my baobeiis giv me a neacklace =)

my dear's card and prez from my mum and sis

thats my besties giv me.. they really read my mind =)

*love u all

on my 20th bday..

eileen & me

Wen & Bee

bday girl & bday boy =) -7th dec 08-

KL stuffs bought & KL trip

2008-12-31T09:57:00.002+08:00

later half day or not?
these few days was passing my time at office with 93.3FM
& msn chats..
hahas.. i finally can eat snake a bit..
winter shutdown at US side, so peaceful coz no emails..
=)

thanks for all those bday wishes from my beloved friends.
thanks for all those who took time off to celebrate my bd wif me.
thanks my 2 baobeiis for making the super nice card for me.
seriously, i've never received a so nice hand-made card b4.
all the presents i've received, i will love it to bits.
hahahas coz a thought that counts.

saturday had an early celebration wif my poly mates,
ytd had celebrate wif dear coz today he is having duty.
we caught this movie Ip Man.. nice movie..
it is pronunce as YIP MUN..
of coz, when he see my frens make bd card for me,
he also went to make it.
but he gong gong one,
he bought one construction paper only to make the card
& make mistakes on it..
lols..
but i really appreciate it, my precious jackson tan.
pls dont make me angry can le..

oh yah.. and mus thanks to one more person.
abby! so cute, she is shufen niece.
& shufen is so sweet that she got abby to sing me bd song.
i tell u.. how cute can she be man..
hahaha..
okok next time meet shufen mus buy lolipop to pass to abby
=)

2008-12-27T10:36:00.002+08:00

he's like being forced by me to take this pic..

lol..

2009 resolutions...

shall blog about it when the days draw nearer.

later town wif lotte and shufen baobeii to hav lunch and simple celebration for my bd.

since the rest so buay on..

nvm ba..

its enuff to have two baobeiis can le..

dear is joining for the first time.

he's forever so busy..

he will be out of country again..

dunno for how long this time..

2008-12-21T12:45:00.002+08:00

yea~ i dun hav to work midnight on the festive seasons le..
so happy, hopefully all the eves i can take half day off.
for eg, christmas eve and new yr eve.
today dear going wedding dinner at great shanghai.
never bring me go =(
hahahas..
dear is leaving to thailand soon,
but lucky is straight after my bday.
if not im going to kill him.
LOLs..

Chinese new yr is coming.
shall get one suit of clothes for CHU YI.
i longed wishing for every yr,
one peranakan clothes.
my grandma had left one suit (sarong and a top)
but that one too or biang le..
sometimes i wonder, mus i thank my dad.
coz got him thats y my family will be speaking eng.
my dad is a baba.. he dunno chinese.
except his chinese name..
hahahahhaa.. =)

well, tml is a monday again.
i hated sunday becoz i will think of monday.
and crazy work load again!
blah!!~

dear having duty on christmas day & on my bday!
so sad =( but can celebrate on the eves.
5 more weeks to attachment ends.
time pls pass faster ok?

2008-12-18T22:14:00.002+08:00

terrible gastric pain~

tml having call conference with US again.

Pray hard that i dun have to work midnight...

PLEASE..... DONT...

Pray hard that my office will shut down on 31 dec or half day

PLEASE!!~....

i need a job soon.

5 more weeks =)

minus next week Christmas,
the week surely very easy to pass.
and the following week, my bday!
hahahahahaha..

so i'm left with 3 more weeks to finish attachment.
& graduating soon =)

27 dec celebrating with my darlings..
sing and eat?
shufen baobeii, will u be free?
charlotte baobeii and me plan on that day..

i jus simply cant wait for hong kong
and malaysia round about trip.

2008-12-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

dun think i keep quiet means you can push over
yah, intern is a cheap labour.
But it doesnt mean that i'm a free labour!
hate that one no brains one,
purposely ask me to take the stack of books up,
& down (lvl 4 to 6 lvl and back)
grrr~!!!!

"might need to work midnight, 500+ documents"
f*k off.
on my birthday, on christmas,
where everyone on leave,
want me to work alone.
damn it!

if i say i wanna go back sch do project?
lol.
it will all becoz of this shitty company.

i will not miss this company and the people after i leave.
& i swear.

red cliff 2 is coming out, 9 Jan
i wanna watch leh.
dear will be back on 17 Jan.
So hopefully by then, the movie is still showing ba.
=)

2008-12-01T00:12:00.001+08:00

- 海角七號-

當陽光再次

回到那飄著雨的國境之南

我會試著把那一年的故事

再接下去說完

2008-11-26T23:41:00.003+08:00

Cute biscuit boxes and chocolates from Toyko Disneyland and Korea.
Toyko Disneyland from dear and Korea chocolates from zhi ting.
Thanks~! =))
oh yah thats like more than 6months ago,
and up till now i haven finish all up.
zzz

i super think that he's so handsome.

David Archuleta.

Songs sung by him is woah!

He's from last american idol..
lol

blah.. enuff of this handsome singer.

jus came back from KL.

Not bad, went there to eat lots of nice food.

shop alot, and its all speed shopping.

lol.

stayed at berjaya times square,

Places worth to shop: Sungei Wang Plaza & Chee Cheong Gai

Food mus try: HK restaurant at sungei wang, stingy ray, claypot rice and the yong tau foo (push cart) at chee cheong gai (known as chinatown)

didnt really get to buy lots of things,

coz 2 days one night is really not enuff

coz we didnt even get to walk mid valley, bukit bintang.

its only a short get-away trip for food.

alvin, F.Y.I

mus walk sungei wang plaza ok..

in any case you read my blog b4 u leave on 5 dec..

hahahas

dear is leaving soon again to thailand - pataya on jan 2nd

luckily not like that time go for 3 months.

jus 3 weeks to thai..

grr jus when will u ORD? hahahhahaas

2008-11-19T21:12:00.004+08:00

hmm.. initially i am very pissed off and angry over one arrogant malay woman. but my darlings listen to me for my crumbles and lol! someone introducing caramel and her frenz to me... tada!

PS: Charlotte demand that that is not caramel.. this one is... see below.

2008-11-15T12:36:00.002+08:00

sigh.. i need time to think..
i need my brain to get a rest.
i need my stiff neck to relax a bit.
i need you.
i want time to stop at happy memories.
i want the clock to turn back time.

well this week nothing much..
later tonight having steamboat out wif my family.
interim report is so irritating.
attachment is a worse pastime hobby.
the pay for attachment is even worse.
but the best thing is....
northpoint open a xin wang hk restaurant!!!
hahhahaa..
so darlings, we can meet up at northpoint to yum cha,
and found a new place to slack le..
yea =)

and dear, pls have dinner wif me everyday at northpoint.
its convenient for me.
and inconvenient for u!
BOO~ =P

2008-11-07T22:07:00.002+08:00

oh yea..
btw, tis month no public holidays..
so sad... but, its a busy month though =)
22 Nov i going KL.. hahahahhaa...
out of sudden i going overseas again.. zzz..
miss me everyone..
though i going there for speed shopping coz going 2 days only..
lols..

2008-11-07T15:27:00.000+08:00

Today is an interesting day at work.
Although I need to reach workplace earlier to have a conference call and net meeting with the San Jose.
My first experience is like so exciting.
Hahaha..
Anyway, the reception sucks.
Coz due to the phone using not in big meeting rooms but jus the phone booth..
They are nice ppl afterall.
But their eng lang so slang.
I only could capture some words out of it.
Hahahahas..
Not as bad as I think.

Well, attachment now then getting more exciting.
Just now lunch-ed at Tampines Ikea.
For the very first time my sup drive out.
Two ladies shop and gossip in the car.
Lol oh man.
She grab furniture for her cutie daughter,
While I grab my hotdog bread back to office.
Some bites will keep me awake for the afternoon. =)

Ytd lunch-ed with dear..
He came to my workplace here to have lunch wif me.
How sweet can he be. =D*Loves*

2008-11-04T21:26:00.003+08:00

25th monthsary on last saturday.
dragging my feets to work every weekdays.
the skill of standing in the mrt & closing my eyes.
the reluctant to on the comp every morning.
the whole chunk of things to do.
the near 10,000 specifications waiting for me
to work on excel spreadsheet,
is making me go crazy.
whats worst is,
my interim report (40pages) haven even started.
due date : 10 NOV 08!
duh.. zzz..
gd the luck to myself man..
hais..

YOU! make me angry..
makes me heart broken..
makes me mad..
and makes me sad..
so disappointing..

and to another YOU!
tell me whats a mother for,
not to throw ur kids ard and pushing him like a ball.
grr..

& to the other YOU!
i kept dreaming abt you these few days.
can my dreams doesnt consist of you inside?

2008-10-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

nth much tis week.
mon-thurs got internal audit..
whole company super busy.
and im like split into 5 parts,
coz my company got 6 level, minus of one level for citibank.
which we could not access it.
oh man, imagine i really can split into 5 parts.
coz i can do half way with piles of work load,
then i am ask to do this and that,
get ppl to sign things at all different levels; scan and etc.
Level 4 to send courier mail at our reception; meetings; auditors.
level 1 to collect overseas mail.
level 2 in and out.
level 3 BIG pantry.
level 6 my own desk..
zzz..
well, lunch as usual - changi airport and simei east point.
The good thing about working in the office.
the bosses will drive out to lunch.
especially when changi business park dun even hav transport to other places.
abandon piece of land with many many big industries and factories.

oh well, finally its my awaiting WW!!! hahahas..
i miss WW..
ya WW, wondering is who right..
lol..
its my Wonderful Weekends.
of coz i miss WW, who dont?
hahaha craps..
ok online spree.
shop for bags online.
and i spend ard 60 and +++ for shipping.

monday monday monday is a public holiday! pls enjoy everyone =)

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
oh darling, i love u.

2008-10-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

actually i think i should jus change my temper.
with my temper,
i can get to nowhere.
im sorry.
whenever i fierce or loud,
i will feel guilty after scolding other ppl.
so everyone, pls tolerate with my flaws.
thanks =)

Fri- lunched at tampines mall.
saw rong tian's smallest sis.
oh man she's grown up
so tall and pretty alr..
well, that slap caiwei given him is deserve it ba.
coz last time i oso did wanted to go over to slap him hard.
but jus couldnt bear.
anyway, that was the past le..
i had my LOVE now wif me.

dear, i truly noe u love me lots.
u've been a very gd bf.
despite of my bads and uncontrolled temper,
u still pamper me well and,
have a gd patience to tolerate me.
=)
i simple love u to bits..

so fast weekends jus comes and goes.. =((
i hate working life.
i miss my long hours sleeping.
afternoon naps.
and next whole week,
i wont get to meet or see him le.
coz he is out sailing and duty.
next weekend pls faster come =)
i miss u mr WW ---> Wonderful Weekends

heex =)

2008-10-13T21:55:00.004+08:00

oh man today i saw tis guy,
jus cant take my eyes off him..
he board the mrt, same cabin and when i looked up,
i saw him wif his frenz i will like woah!
he caught my attention and,
that type of guys which i will say he is handsome..
ok jus dun say im a da hua chi hor..
coz very seldom i will say a guy handsome..

today morning send my sis off,
she's so cute coz she somehow cant bear to check in..
she hug me and ask me whether im gonna miss her..
but she's only going for 8days.. zzz..
hhahaa..
however, i really wan her to come back safe and sound..
and saw a celebrity at the airport too.

gonna force myself to start on last week report alr..
coz tml going to work.
lame shit another day for tml..
wif tons and piles of work load for me to do,
and im not sure y so many things are given for me to do!

argh! nights everyone~

2008-10-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

went to cut hair during the weekends.. went ecp cycling wif my dear on saturday.. =)

-metal box sweets, tokyo disney biscuits, bubble tea and food-

fri went orchard shopping wif my mum and sis,
went to shop for my sis's taiwan trip..
damn gd la she can go taiwan shopping and enjoy her holidays..
tml taking leave, no choice but mus to..
wo bu fang xin let my mum alone at hme especially when my sis is out of country..

i hate ppl to accuse me,
dun provoke me when i alr dislike u..
if u r using such a despicable method for ur better work performance,
i despise u ok..
argh, im jus an intern and i noe my pay is low,
cheap labour,
but that doesnt mean i need or want ur f*-ing small little diamond which u drop at dunno where or which part of the office..
crazy..
and somemore its fake one, think u got it at lucky plaza coz thats where u belong to!

ARGH!@#$$^&%

2008-10-13T00:10:00.003+08:00

all my long overdue photos... hahahas..

the outing which we watched 4bia..
lunch-ed wif lotte at asian kitchen..

Class dinner at marina square -kenny rogers- =) i miss them! and i miss sch life..

1st Oct 2008 =) singapore flyers on our 2 yrs anni *muacks*

2008-10-08T23:27:00.002+08:00

today had some experience in internal audit
coz my sup brings me along to be observer.. zzz
but i realised something,
i learn to work smart.
cheap labour is not wat they can find de.
but bo bian since im an intern,
i shall REN!

jus came hme, watched my best fren's girl.
saw accident again and not again, i always see accidents ard me.
my sis says im a bad omen..
hahaha..maybe ba.. so im causing road hazards to the traffic man.
i noe i owe my class photos.. hahaa.. kk i will send u all latest by tml night okok..
sorry for the super late delay.
busy wif stupid weekly reports and finally i cleared mine till week 5 coz i was assigned the dateline by my supervisor.. =((

thurs tml and then friday... yea, always been looking forward to fri coz weekends! hahahas.. oh yah sis is going taiwan on monday.. and she is going for like freaking 8days.. so gd.. i wanna go oso cant, coz of attachment.. zzz =( sad man.. anyways, hope she get some things for me back. lol i noe she loves me. =)

nights everyone, i go slp le..

2008-10-02T21:32:00.002+08:00

yea and finally tml is friday.. tis week 4 days week only..
yesterday we went to singapore flyer.. =)
yup my dear bring me there as to celebrate our two yrs anni..

well, Happy 2yrs anni =)
2 yrs and not 2 months,
see how far we have come..
but see how many obstacles are between us.. =(
haix..

watever la.. sad things put aside..
hahaha im a tortise coz im super excited sitting on the ferris wheel of 165 high..
first time ok.. coz i think its a waste of money if u for nothing go and hav a ride.
popeye dinner =))
love u!

tml suntec, kenny rogers i guess? coz fen today called me and told me..
see u all guys there.. so excited can do some catch ups wif u guys.. =D

2008-10-01T10:22:00.004+08:00

sometimes im wondering if im being mean..
i knew i should not hav pressed u too much at times..
i know u r stressed and i still create so much problems to u..
i really dun mean to..
im so afraid i will stressed u till u got depression too..
maybe sometimes i should not hav been so fierce to u..
maybe i should really cherish u coz u r back..
shouldnt it be that way?
many people told me, after three months plus when he is back,
both of u will cherish each other more..
yup and i still love u so... =)
jus that between us, i feel so much different from the start..
im hanging on, and enjoy the times we are together..
be it talk on conversation, outings and movies..

work had been the same,
with tons of work to do..
lunch wif boss everyday..
reports and reports and more reports.. grr..
same old morning standing at khatib bus stop to wait for the company bus,
looking at 852 public bus pass by,
i miss bus journey to sch..
daily sch routine..
passing by the bus stop,
it had been a habit to look out of the window.. =(
i really miss sch..
i should grow up and not being childish..
i mus adapt to working life,
and not to complain so much abt missing sch life..

yay and friday going out wif my darlings.. finally can get to see ah fen huh.. busy woman..
lotte arh lotte.. i need a talk wif u b4 friday..
vivo vivo~! see u girls soon =)
and btw, ah fen's post hor.. i noe the act clever girl is who.. ur lovely partner in office right?

2008-09-27T14:51:00.002+08:00

finally weekends.. =) yea..

going out later.. might go to city hall.. to feel the F1 event..
tis week popular topics are F1 and the milk made in china.. lol..

didnt really blog for a week.. this whole week nothing much except monday, thurs and fri.. & for the rest of the weekdays, i went home after work.. no life..

he went sailing.. this whole week didnt get to see him at all..

well, i think im used to it..

ytd, met my daddy for dinner at thomson there.. had prata.. =) didnt drive coz i didnt bring my plate.. argh!@@#$$ hahahaha...

thurs & wed met up wif my sec sch frenz.. had simple dinner after work..

monday- volley at bishan, dinner and hme sweet hme.. =)

suddenly, u and ur caring lingers my mind
so sweet yet nothing means to u..

2008-09-21T11:34:00.002+08:00

i hav a dream..
a fantasy..
to help me through..
in reality..
and my destination..
makes it worth a while..
wishing through the darkness..
i believe in angels..
something good in everything i see..

attachment's is so boring now..
i miss sch life..
i miss long bus ride journeys..
& definitely i miss 10am lessons in the past..

now, 8.30am to 5.30pm
wat a office life..

if only a relationship no need to face soo many external obstacles,
it then can be lasting and happiness..
now me n him, decided to be tgt..
time is all he need..
maybe i should jus giv him more time to see how things goes..
=)

enrolling bike license soon le =Dd

2008-09-13T02:58:00.003+08:00

haix.. its really super tiring.. to face this type of problems..

we having a hard time.. as in hard time to solve our problems..

sigh..

i had a hard time guessing wat is her next move.. fuck man!

y not jus lock her up in the mental.. im super sick and tiring of she coming to disturb my life..

threatening.. damn it! i really got no patience to guess her bloody next move..

dear im so fear of being together wif u.. especially hav to face ur this type of mother.. =((

can we jus, erm... u know.. i think nobody will jus can tolerate ur .... yah... u get wat i mean..

sigh, sigh, sigh..

maybe i shall say it here first, b4 anything happens...

my dear family and frenz, if one day i were to die on the streets, u should know who to look for.. yah.. so pls prepare for the worst.. and family members, PLS HATE HER FOR LIFE AND DO NOT DO ANYTHING TO HER AS I WAN HER TO LIVE IN GUILT!

thanks..

2008-09-12T14:40:00.001+08:00

blah..

im on mc again..

very sick... the feeling of being sick is not gd at all..

no bubble tea, no fried chicken wings..

the awful medicines and cough syrup.. =((

going to slp soon.. the medicine is taking its effect alr..

dinner at hot pot later at tiong bahru.. hopefully my daddy let me drive to there, but i dunno the way.. ahhahas..

2008-09-11T23:21:00.003+08:00

should or should not? will i regret any decision i made?

haix..

so many problems we r facing.. making my heart to hav a strain of even loving u more.. =(

today having chinese lesson again.. lol..

well, met up to hav dinner at yishun chong pang.. had my chicken terryaki jap rice..
im like super sick.. bus ride home again.. =)

oh yah, i've been mc.. for like two days im spending at hme sleeping wif those drowziness medicine.. =(( and yet i haven recover.. tml shall i go to work?! my supervisor jus worried that i might spread germs to others.. zzz.. but if i dun go work, will she thinks that i not interested...

2008-09-10T21:57:00.002+08:00

haix.. watched a movie ytd, guess its the last movie wif him.. the story is saying that tis girl's fiancée passed away thats y they broke up.. instead, mine is the other way round.. broke up not becoz we dun love each other but no other way out.. ='( yup tats the end.. super looking forward to oct 2nd coz its our 2nd yr anniversary.. guess not le ba.. anyone wanna date me out on oct 2nd? i really need someone to date me out on that day ok..

looking forward for him to be back, but things turn out to be like tis.. i'd rather dun wan him to be back.. ='( someone pls hug me and tell me that it will be alright for me?.. time will heal ba.. yrs.. and yrs.. or maybe tml i wake up and i will jus forget everything =) yup i hope so k.. today im on mc, super sick.. i was shocked as he brought liang cha and porridge waiting for me at my house downstairs.. i know u mus be feeling damn heart broken as i said y u wanna come.. but actually i was feeling the sweetest girl in the world.. how much i love him, his mother can never know.. i appreciate it, really.. thanks alot..

take good care of yourself, if we r meant to be, we will..
wo zhen de bu she de..
i'll wait for u, no matter wat..
i love you..

2008-09-07T17:08:00.002+08:00

yea~ finally he's back.. hmm, guess everything he has to be mature le, coz many things for him to settle.. fri - he went to my company building to fetch me =) when i first saw him, i giv him a tight hug man.. really miss him damn lots.. hahaha.. then we slowly walked to expo to shop at the john little mega sale! gd thing is that i get to shop at those mega sale or roadshow when im attached there, coz lunch time oso can go there shopping.. bought lots of food there.. went to city hall while we had our dinner at our usual restaurant and shopped, esplanade.. chatted alot alot alot.. the happenings of our 3months and show me his photos of different countries they went and giv me all the things he bought for me at the various countries.

ytd, me and dear didnt join fen and des as well as lotte for shopping coz we left house too late and i need to acc him to toa payhoh to settle some stuffs .. so i noe my girls will understand and love me de right.., hahahahas.. well, so as plans goes, we went to tpy ard noon then had our late lunch then we proceed to bishan to see derrick hoh.. hahaha.. he thinks that im siao, and said "where got gf bring her own bf to see other guys" lol.. alright alright but no complains he help me take photo coz he's tall enuff, unlike me so short =( after which, evening time we went off to orchard to get his watch changed as i didnt check properly when i buy for him as present for his 21st bday.. and i saw eddie! haha.. a green man walked pass me without i knowing.. well, great to see u eddie! lol..

met up wif su juan at yishun mac ard 10pm plus and chatted all the way to 12am plus.. zzz we hav many things to chat man.. hahahaha...

saw beesim, wen, hsiao while they were working and im shopping.. zzz i felt so broke without working.. im jus depending on a 400 bucks per month..

PS: shufen arh!!! so nice la ur sis.. see her can get 200bucks to go shopping.. hahaha.. yah and des is so sweet to pei ni go girl shop.. hahaha.. see u all soon kk.. miss ya all!~ =)

2008-09-04T14:20:00.001+08:00

Yah, if u were the one who did it, I feel very disappointed, but if u did it out of jealousy, think I feel super sad for you. Like what I’ve always said, dun criticize other people until you look into the mirror yourself. If u’re the one, think about my words. Oh yah if you r the yucks or whatever shit and timid nick u give yourself, I guess u’ve got SUPER BIG breast and SUPER GOOD figure eh. Why not join the latest F1 job scope to be a ferrai show girl then? Lol. Dun shame urself around. It might scare people off =) hahahaha..

Yesterday after work, I meet up with my elder sister at bugis to accompany her to buy her friend’s birthday gift, while waiting for someone to go sim lim tower to get some electronic stuffs for attachment project.

I love hk cuisine restaurant for dinner,
I love the arcade basketball at bugis,
I love the Chinese lesson taught,
I love those bus journeys =)

Oh tml finally is Friday, 05 September =D "pls be reminded that RSS steadfast will be reaching Singapore on tml 9am!! Hahahahahaha… nothing could express my long waiting months without minimal communication between us. And completely no face interaction for like so long. *hugs u tml tightly* =))

2008-09-03T16:33:00.001+08:00

Come on’ jia you dora tan! You can make it de.. im feeling so sleepy right now.. hahahahas.. yay Friday Jackson tan coming hme le.. can finally smack him and whack him.. most importantly not forgetting abuse him!!! Hahahhas.. evil me.. wat a evil gf he has.. lol!

Ytd after work, met up wif er zi to bishan and meet the rest of the sentosa ka ki-s for beach volley ball meeting at bishan north cc.. zzz.. then they drive us home..

2008-08-31T03:59:00.005+08:00

as clever as an idiot

thanks for that sentence! i'm gonna rmbr it.. and thanks for letting me to hate u.. =) im still chatting wif ivor on how many ways to hate u.. and tats it.. i've found one..

how come u treat other ppl so gd, but to me like tis.. frenz turn out to be tis way huh.. fine then..

as wat son said, he may be joking but "ha-ha" wat a joke huh.. joking hav to say until so mean?!

plsgetawayfrommylife and shutupurstinkingmouth.

no more dota session, no more sentosa session, no more outings, no more lunch, no more dinner session.! great..

27hours later would be the start of my attachment le.. so reluctant and nervous.. fear that i go there and dunno how to do their tasks given to me, fear that those ppl there unfriendly? hahaha i got so many unwillingly to start my attachment so soon.. and im alone in that company, meaning hav to be independant, unlike others, some of my classmates got into the same department too.. so lucky.. at least they can hav lunch together, like got some familar faces to get along for the lunch time..i dun hav! =( shall not grumble, i muz be content.. hahahas..

needed 8days to travel from shanghai back to singapore meh? =( faster faster time to pass..

2008-08-30T14:42:00.004+08:00

the chalet photos which not upload finish =)

-playful times~

after a long night of dota and tau pok session, a massage for cheng boon do helps..

hahahas..

alright, today is 30th of august alr.. 6 more days and dear is back.. =) super excited and happy, however, i think when he's back, he wont be happy le.. or maybe i think there will be many things for him to settle.. his 21st bday is coming le.. i really hope he can reached in singapore on the day of his bday.. =( i wanna celebrate wif him!!! hahahas..

ytd went to watch 4bia wif my classmates (lotte, cheng boon, alvin, ed, tj) .. damn its scary for the sound effect ok.. some of the scenes which is not scary but behind the girls scream and i oso shocked.. lol.. went to comex fair in the early afternoon b4 meeting the guys.. yup and saw zhiting, fu long and some familar faces over there.. and most importantly, i saw this cute guy.. hahas.. some celebrities too.. well, after movie we went to esplanade to take some photos.. then i went to meet my mum and sis at dhoby gaut, while the rest of them went to parklane to play pool..

haix, y everyone like to say sorry after like so many years later.. zzz.. really after so many yrs later then we started talking to each other like frenz.. dumb dumb now then tell me that he missed his chance last time.. but nvm as wat wen says that if dun hav him, i wont be able to meet my current bf now le.. =) yup true though..

today is 100th days of my uncle's death... =(( while choosing his clothes to burn, wo you yi zhong chong dong xiang yao ku.. bought a mansion house for him.. hahahas.. i really miss my uncle alot.. last time i used to think that he's very naggy coz old ppl love to nag.. and he often nag at me but now i realised its for my own good, how i wish he's here to continue to nag at me and concern for us.. no more le.. haix ='(

attachment new location and new company at changi, no longer at amk.. changi is better, hahaha coz can everyday after work meet my dear at tanah merah mrt as we both at changi and near.. =)) working time oso the same.. heex.. *loves*

me and him (he's becoming fatter after going U.S) hahas..

2008-08-28T22:12:00.006+08:00

love them lots =) chalet time.. i still got many photos to upload de.. but too many photos le.. i continue to upload tml kk.. coz the other photo got shufen inside..

leaving off the chalet...

stupid dumb me to on the flash when taking photo wif reference of the mirror.. zzz

23/08/08 - early celebration for eileen =)

dhoby gaut aijisen - (wif maine, wen, bs, ek, juan )

8yrs and counting... =)

alright, the funniest part is coming up,

funny faces..

when shuwen say pls be serious and formal! ...

and when wen say "informal" hahahas..

2008-08-27T14:07:00.002+08:00

grr~!! when things doesnt go my way.... =(( haix..

jus reach hme from chalet, tired and soon i will post photos on eileen bday outing and photos at chalet okay? =)

PS: i love my mr tan, 6th sept =)

2008-08-24T18:12:00.002+08:00

"Maybe somethings are once in a lifetime"

&

"Maybe somethings i'll never forget"

=)

2008-08-22T18:41:00.014+08:00

hmm like i've said, after exams i will blog.. yea..

well, jus ended the final exams.. i scare i will flunk for ytd last paper.. damn.. attachment starting on 1st sept.. amk, zen and my job scope is short simple and sweet.. which is setting up QA and document control.. so quality control kind.. zzz.. and worse thing is my attachment pay is lesser than a ns guy.. -.-" which means my dear earn more than me.. think when he's back, can meet him at town after work, coz near amk..

holidays is jus like a week.. and all pack full for now till next week tues.. having class chalet on tis coming sunday, and tml will be celebrating eileen's bday wif the girls =))

today i slept till 5pm? hahahas... i very and super long never slp for like soooo long le.. 14 hrs i guess.. =D hahahas pig me.. anw, ytd last paper and i went to defu while lotte and fen left to orchard.. after which i went to amk to meet my mummy and sis.. hmm... lol i jus simply love to pass food which i cant finish to other ppl, and u're always willing to finish up for me.. and becoz of me, there's tis tummy.. =p

then went to cineleisure to catch the 9.45pm movie wif zhiting, guo qing and ronald.. and tis is so last minute when zt called me to ask me wanna go a not.. coz ronald is flying back to L.A today morning flight.. so did a meet up wif them.. and slack at h.k cafe for some light dessert and chats.. talking abt how long we get to know each other, since sec 1.. guess abt 7yrs plus.. =)) really sweet to do some catch up wif them.. after which we cabb-ed hme..

a week b4 which is friday 15 Aug 2008, eddie's 21st bday chalet..

met up wif my girls and my class peeps -violet, alvin, cheng boon and zhu cheng- hope eddie had a memorable 21st bday in his life time wif his family, friends and his church ppl =)) oh yah, and his niece and nephew is damn sweet and cute..

sabo eddie's by reading the card lotte, fen and me made for him.. the worse thing is, we wanna him to read those plenty of chinese words.. lol! and he was asked to tried on the prez we and boon they all bought for him.. he was thrown into the pool and cake cream on his face after the cake cutting session at night.. I was the culprit.. wahahaha.. 21st ma.. bo bian mus de.. =P and i think i will not hav my 21st bday celebrated in sg, if not can die.. hahahhaa..

lots of photos taken.. =))

*and i really love them lots
=)*

then then we girls left after the cut cake seesion, lotte came to my house to stay over.. we went back to yishun and met up wif alan and hanhui to go occ play pool till ard 2plus am.. and we slowly walked back to my house.. due to the lack of slp, all thanks to hh arh.. morning we oso dint giv him good time to slp either.. slept at 5plus am and woke up at 7plus am that day..

*caring & sweet*

Saturday 16th aug, morning went to my house downstairs for breakfast and then off to sentosa! =) wif same sentosa ka-kis..

tired after the whole day at sentosa coz had lots of beach volley matches.. and met a grp of funny ppl, who claimed they r ex-ngee ann peeps.. and the ang moh sweeties! =D very cute.. lotte and me joined in the soccer wif the kids.. hahahahaha..

bath- sun burnt- chinatown for dinner- hme sweet hme-

*though some sweet things make my heart melt, but i hated it when things turn out to be like tat*

15days to the day my dear is back.. =D super happy coz the day is coming.. 1 week plus more to his 21st bday.. heex.. cant wait to celebrate his 21st bday when he's back..

2008-08-18T15:59:00.001+08:00

really really feeling very down..
wanna blog lots of things but really hav no mood right now..
maybe after exams alright.. lots of photos will be uploaded too..

jia you jia you, dora! be strong pls! =(

2008-08-15T12:15:00.004+08:00

blah..

supposed to meet my girls in sch... but im still at hme now.. lol.. jus couldnt get up in the morning.. toopid cramps.. hated it when i plan to go sentosa tml alr.. =( damn..

well, later going to pasir ris.. eddie's 21st.. =) once in a lifetime.. and im going wif my girls.. ytd meet up wif them at west mall to study and get somethings.. i can say hello to macdonalds.. all three meals oso mac.. zzzz.. coz i wanna collect all the 5 cups.. silly.. hahaha.. couldnt get last one so i tot of giving up, but evening time meet up wif hanhui and alan to go parkway to get volley net.. so i pull them to eat mac again TOO! zzz.. im so sick of mac..

later i wanna take many many pics if our class ppl oso got go.. =)) kk i go prepare le.. bye everyone..~

i love u mr tan =)

2008-08-13T15:37:00.001+08:00

haix.. hao ren nan zuo.. disappointed.. upset..

i will not care,
i will not speak,
neither will i help in the future!

i say it and i mean it..

i hate u!

sigh

2008-08-12T15:47:00.009+08:00

haix.. im feeling very sad.. y do things turn out tis way.. im dumb, super dumb.. dear, only if u r
here beside me.. listening to all my complains and naggings.. it will brighten me up a bit then..
everything would be alright.. 6th september is coming =))

today supposed to go sch study, but i couldnt get up due to... ytd played dota till 3 am.. zzz..

yah played dota wif the usuals (hh and er zi,without sp) then lotte learned how to play ytd..

tried a new character ytd (sniper), with the guidance of er zi.. he taught me wat to buy.. but i jus couldnt kill any hero with sniper..

thats the results of y i couldnt get up tis morning.. grr.. hahahas..

我不需要你假心心来对待我, 乎冷又乎热
(wo bu xu yao ni jia xin xin lai dui dai wo, hu leng you hu re)

2008-08-11T20:43:00.004+08:00

kbox on 080808.. hahas..

dun they look alike ? hahaha.. got fu qi xiang

And not forgetting tis is wat ms chen (charlotte) draw for me after telling her ytd the pissed off conversation.. hahahaha...

2008-08-10T11:19:00.003+08:00

jus woke up to do wiki..

saturday (ytd), went to sentosa wif my sentosa ka-ki-s.. (lotte, andy, hanhui, kenneth and alan) looks like frequent saturday we will be hanging ard at sentosa wif them. waited for them to fetch at khatib mrt then set off to harbour front to meet up wif son and lotte..

lunch-ed, and we played volley ball.. my right wrist is swollen and blue black.. tis is the results of really playing volley ball and learning it.. "ehh volley hao wan ma?" yup fun to play, especially when i get to start the ball over and over again and it went pass the net.. lol =)

btw, saw juan, jing and maine there.. they went sentosa ytd too..

bath-ed then lotte left us.. dinner at chong pang, we chatted and laughed.. they sent me hme after that.. =))

anw, dear called me ytd morning.. im like super happy to receive his call each time, coz he will be telling me he's at where now.. like in the middle of the sea or alr reached a destination. he told me once he reached japan he will call me.. well, about less than 30days and he will be back.. yea, very fast i can get to see him le.. *sweet loves*

2008-08-08T16:56:00.004+08:00

Thurs - went back to sch wif fen and lotte to sch to clear all the assignments.. im like super happy.. =) coz managed to clear most of it in sch.. sqc lab we sing, do the assignments, making noise.. hahas.. printed their lab reports in library, took back my ssp book which i left it at their project room at the same time met er zi and hh to go hme tgt, fen and lotte went to cut hair.. then i met up wif my fren for dinner.. went hme to changed and off to khatib mac to continue wif assignment stuffs, as hh do his report..

yay went kbox wif my darlings jus now.. today very busy la.. 8am got presentation then forget to bring the stupid lab results so i rushed back hme straight to get it, after which i went back to sch, on the way i met hh at yck.. then lotte, fen and me took a cab down to clementi and we sing k.. after a while later desmond came..

and now? i jus went over to my uncle's house to claim back my laptop and bag then jus reached hme to placed my bag down, i hav to leave my house to meet my mum at northpoint for dinner and do some shopping i guess.. and ronald, guo qing they all called and said they going northpoint too.. so probably meeting them after i do some shopping wif my mum =) ya tats it.. oh ya sis wanted to meet me n mum at amk but we mus wait for her, so mum dun wan.. hahahas.. well, tml should i go sentosa? hmm someone pls decide for me.. dear is not ard, i felt so handicapped wif my decision as all along im so indecisive.

these photos taken on tuesday the gathering =)) *

2008-08-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

ehhh.. pls fuck off..

2008-08-06T15:06:00.003+08:00

ytd, went out wif my sec sch mates.. its been long since we last met for some of us..

met up wif zhiting and guo qing at city hall first, then later on bee sim, john teoh, jia ping, marcos and ronald came.

ronald came back from LA.. as usual, each yr he come back, we will hav some gathering.. talking almost every topic.. really missing sec sch times.. ppl changed, jia ping had become more mature, maybe coz of her shatec uniform, so looks kinda formal.. yah then we realised each topic will link to npcc people.. hahas.. well, those days were really memorable.

had dinner, and my stomach really sucks.. keep running to toilet till countless.. seen a doc and today supposingly going to sentosa wif lotte and kelda but cancel coz due to the weather and im too weak to step out of my house after countless of toilet trips last night.. lol..

i finally figure out my doubts =) its none of his fault.. my mistake.. hahas..
yea counting down 4 more weeks till dear is back.. my fantasy can soon to be erased, let me face the reality ba.. i'll miss u boy

2008-08-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

ya i really dun understand somethings.. =(( can u pls pls pls answer my doubts? sigh..

2008-08-04T10:45:00.004+08:00

lotte and me.. =)

charlotte take.. she claimed that my skills not gd.. lol

ivor's 21st bday celebration

lastly, my dear and me =) *muacks*

PS: JACKSON TAN! I MISS U.. FASTER COME BACK..

2008-08-03T13:18:00.006+08:00

i jus couldnt sit still on doing hmewks.. lol.. well although morning had some irritating calls from work but grr i jus switch my hp to silent mode.. hahas..

yesterday was fun.. sentosa wif lotte.. girls are really san bian.. suddenly last min then decided to go.. so we reached there quite late alr and the sun not burning alr.. ha.. therefore never really get tanned.. so sad..

then met up wif the guys.. han hui, son and frenz.. although we felt quite awkward initially.. but they r very funny ppl..

we had dinner at newton circus wif all the oyster.. the guys finish all up.. lol.. almost laugh till cramp in the car when going hme.. hahahas.. oh ya and 7 ppl squeeze in a car.. omg can imagine how "slim" we r.. lol!

tanning-volleyball-rest-sunset-bath-dinner-home =)
photos other time coz got some photos not wif me.

2008-08-02T02:42:00.003+08:00

u all can jolly well shut ur mouth up when u sing comments on other ppl when u think abt how "good" u are.. ha.. f*ing ass..

if u think that in the past u bad mouth me abt me and bla bla bla.. then the other side of u acting as though as gd, i can tell u tis ar.. that my blog the bitch refering is u, and no one else.. not my secondary sch frenz which my dear girls had tried to stop me from ruining our friendship.. omg such frenz i wouldnt hav wan.. bad mouth our boyf behind our back to other ppl can get lost... pls see urself in the mirror b4 making a comment on how "GOOD" is our boyf when u dun hav one.. although i didnt hear u saying mine boy, (luckily i heard u didnt say mine, if not.. ha...ha..ha), well my temper is controlling and still maintainable.. oh ya and jolly well know where is ur manners to be put at.. lend something from other ppl is u owe a favour, and not the other way round.. dun act like as if u lend things from ppl and when wanna return like as if ppl owe u like tat.. nah buey.. fuck-ed up..

oh ya making myself angry aint gd anyway... i will learn more skillful on how to handle such things as i think i will face somemore tis type of ppl in the future.. so i mus SMILE =D 150km/hr can make me dizzy man.. had supper and my fren drive ard from thomson to seletar reservior to jalan kayu and back to yishun.. omg its not driving its speeding can.. especially the bends and the turns.. lol..

nightss everyone and i shall not hav any night mares of bitches =))

2008-08-01T15:54:00.004+08:00

=( =( =( ='(

coming to nearer 100 days after my uncle's death.. i really feeling very sad.. there are many things i haven said to him.. i was in sch the day which after i went to visit him at hospital in the early morning.. went back sch but cant helped it crying into shufen's arms.. i knew and sense something bad had happened.. i wished i could be strong.. how could i be when its after 100 days my aunt-in-law passed away and then my closest uncle left me and my family.. i hate friday.. every friday i would recall it.. hospital, in cab driving very fast to make it to hospital but still couldnt, the tears i dropped really hurts.. the very same day at mandai ceramentation, i see him and send to the fire.. i really cryed out loud to call his name.. i really scared to stay at hme every afternoon becoz i would think of him.. coz my dearest uncle without failed come to my house every afternoon after buying newspaper and read wif me while i do my things.. i passed my tp and get car license, i could do it coz i told myself i wanna drive him ard to eat all kinds of his favourite food.. laksa, coke, all kinds of hot chilli stuffs.. thinking back now i really couldnt helped but dropped tears.. i haven drive him ard then he left!!!! i couldnt accept the fact.. the times i made him angry when he's alive, becoz i couldnt stand ppl nagging at me.. but he never ever bear grudges, the next day like nothing happen will morning call me to go sch, bring lunch for me and accompany me at hme till my mum come hme from work.. i regretted it, for the chinese new yr eve i shouted at him, i really hated myself.. he haven tell me more abt world war 2, haven tell me the history... i haven drive him ard to pray my grandmother for the shao mu month.. ='( driving a car ard is really useless for me now.. i missed him especially today is friday and im at hme.. sigh..

by mariah carey, this song the lyrics is so true and meaningful..
as a child there were them times
i didn't get it but you kept me in line i didn't know whyyou didn't show up
sometimes on sunday mornings
and i missed you
but i'm glad we talked through all
them grown folk things separation
brings you never let me know it
you never let it show because you loved me
and obviously there's so much more left to say
if you were with me today face to face
i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on
i wish i could talk to you for a while
miss you but i try not to cry as time goes by
and it's true thatyou've reached a better place
still i'd give the world to see your face
and be right here next to you
but it's like you're gone too soon
now the hardest thing to do is say to say bye..

you never got a chance to see how good i've done
and you never got to see me back at number one

i thought you were so strong you'd make it through whatever
it's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever . ='(

treasure everyone ard u especically ur most loved ones.. dun be like me, living in full of regrets..

2008-07-31T23:53:00.002+08:00

yup finally its over.. ha.. well done.. im so proud of my dear charlotte.. =)

*saying hello to my k850i AGAIN!*

hahahas.. damn sad la... lol.. but im still laughing away my stupidness.. went to meet my mum at town.. finally bought my giantic pooh bear of 70cm tall.. hahahahas.. sitting side by side wif my pooh bear is really funny coz the thing is same height as me when sitting down.. lol! spend over few hundreds today.. oh gosh.. my bank is empty.. anyone wanna donate some money in? tell me and i can giv u my account number. =D hahahahas..

went sch wif hh today, then had some revision in class, then slacked at wong tt lesson, then out to lunch! hahaha yay my darling shufen drive today, so we think of where to eat and we decided to go sp eat.. while lotte can ask mei nu out for lunch tgt at sp..

well, i miss u.. still got one more month to go.. japan to shanghai then back to spore le.. yay!~ finally the counting down going to over le.. i can get to see u and giv u a big big hug.. =D u've asked me in the morning, "will u still be my gf when im back?" hahas silly boy.. =))

the answer is: "of coz i still am =)"

2008-07-30T21:00:00.005+08:00

The club or u can say it a pub in bintan.. =) my mum was drunk.. and its a "jin dian" scene.. hahaha..

my sister and her super best frens..

my sister and me...

busy busy busy... projects, assignments, lab reports... omg when can i ever complete it.. im super lazy.. yr 3 is how i spend my time, with laziness.. damn.. hahaa..

yup jus received dear's msg at friendster.. well, im like super happy but sad coz i cant even tell him things or talk to him or even a hello to him on phone.. this is wat i get when i had to face his mother.. thank q you arh! grr!!!!!!!

2008-07-28T00:26:00.005+08:00

went town wif wen, bee and eileen today to support her bf's singing competition. well, i saw tis super giant pooh bear 70cm! haha love it too much le..

haix.. i dunno y.. i got tis super strong feeling when his mum called me.. i really feel like giving up le.. she cut away ur auto roam.. its equal to ur line get cut off and we've got no communication.. its alr very suffering for me to leave u so far apart from me and now without even a source of communication except internet when u cant really use the computer.. ='( im really very tired.. very very tired le.. dear, u see tis ma? i had to face so many project stuffs, tons of lab reports and assignments due soon and final exams coming le.. and now i still hav to handle ur mum, to hear her telling me u called home so rarely but yet ur hp bill is so high.. wtf! and now worse still, u haven reach japan and we cant communicate at all le.. haix.. sigh i really lazy and tired to face all these le.. i tried hard and all means to source for solutions to all these but its all not in use.. i really misses u lots.. really wish u r here beside me, everyday get to see u.. my hands are missing ur hands, i miss the way u hold me when im feeling very down, when i need a shoulder to lie on... september can faster come ma so that i can get to see u?! i've got lots of things to tell u..!

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落

2008-07-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

yay~! finally today dear call me.. yup oso msg me that 4 more days for the totally 22days in the middle of the sea of hawaii.. man, i really miss u lots okay!.. hahahahas.. well, im really looking forward to september.. dear send me photos of himself and put a msg of saying, "send u photos of myself in case u forget my face..." lol.. funny huh he.. but, omg i really cant imagine... and he's become fatter!!! i straight away called him when i saw his mms and sms.. HAHAHAs.. really lor and i totally cant believe its him.. yea soon he going jogging wif me le.. =) he gained 10kg.. wth.. lol.. but dun worry i love u still coz i oso getting fatter too... hahahahas.. *muacks*

-hugs u till flat on 6th sept-

2008-07-22T10:23:00.003+08:00

gd the morning everyone~ =))
well, woken up from my slp sooo early in the morning today when i dun need to go sch
all thanks to someone huh..
hahaha.. cant be blame coz he didnt noe i dun need go sch, thought today i 10 start so... oso kinda gd coz i can wake up to do my 500 words reflection for the damn wisp.. thanks ar hh...

grr.. piles of hmewks,
assignments,
projects,
tests,
exams coming up..
today shall camp at hme to finish up, but im totally lazy to even touch it.
thinking of wat my modules r tested, i somehow feel like i noe nuts on the modules especially mndt and m&c.. duh.. its the last 3 weeks of the sem le and i still seems to be living in the world of jus the start of sem..

left wif less than 7wks and my dear is coming back le.. yea~! thinking of it makes me happy, but less than 6weeks we gonna hav the start of attachment.. girls, we muz meet up more often ok? as we planned we muz at least meet up once a week and chat on phone.. dear in the middle of the sea for more than 10days w/o communication le.. he called me last sat and tell me he one day vomit three times!! duh, tats very serious man.. making me worry for him everyday.. hopefully everything goes well for him.. =)) ENDURE!

2008-07-19T11:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st BDAY IVOR =)

later will be celebrating his bday at ecp.. meeting ruby and gwen they all first ba..

well.. hated it when u actually dun wanna think abt it le but still talk to u..

how i wish i could.....

2008-07-17T18:15:00.002+08:00

thomson,
852,
sch library,
suntec,
amk,
yck,
ssdc,
yishun,
khatib,
home sweet home

=) sweet memories r meant to be kept.. a caring person like u will never forget..

anyway, y mus things turn out to be that way, i really dun feel like even opening my mouth or taking a glance at u all.. like everyone owes u like tat.. lending things from ppl but not even a thanks when returning.. showing the bloody hell f* face and throwing temper ard is wat u know how to do.. making ppl so sick and tired of even talking or answering u.. great..

hmms.. enuff of those "cant be bothered ppl"..

well, im missing u like crazy, 3 months is long and many things happened within these three months.. i've many tons of things to tell u, complain to u, talking to u, saying gd night and gd morning to u everyday.. hugs and kisses r also on hibernate.. thinking now is july, left with august month and *tada september u will be back, makes me happy and brighten up my day each morning.. =D love u! i seriously noe how to love a person when i get to know how bad is other people out in this world.. ok lets say we put ur mum aside? maybe things would be different.. ya.. maybe that will do? everything will back to the same when u r back alright.. so pls faster faster come back can..

2008-07-15T23:14:00.002+08:00

watched red cliff jus now.. the movie was ok la.. abt three kingdom, lasted abt 2hr plus.. jus came back =)) *

2008-07-14T18:57:00.002+08:00

surprisely i happened to see my sec sch frenzz at yishun polyclinic.. firstly marcos then after which saw bee sim.. was chatting wif marcos since when we last saw.. woah it was like 2 years ago ba.. time really flies.. haix.. hahas anyway, ytd came back from bintan le and damn i hurt my right toe.. imagine i tried to learn some swimming and then BANG hit my right toe and the nail came off and bleed like hell.. =(( damn pain can.. argh.. make me more phobia in swimming le.. hahas.. saturday morning is the happiest start off day b4 i left to bintan.. =D

ya.. and didnt go to sch today coz no lab and i pon the whole day as well.. lol.. tml another motivation to go to sch again.. well, photos upload next time as i going to take nap alr.. nights everyone..~

-jus like honey misses bee-
awaiting for sept

2008-07-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

yea! bintan tml early morning.. mus miss me ok~ =D

7.15am mus reach tanah merah ferry.. sunday night then come back.. and i've not yet packed my bag.. duh.. hahas.. jus now reached hme and nua till now.. went to buy sun tanning lotion and acc my fren to hunt for clothes too.. my muscles damn ache u noe.. like 3 yrs didnt take napfa.. and wtf damn 2.4! all 5 stations sui sui de.. then 2.4 killer.. nice one arh.. but blah watever la~ over le.. it aint important anymore.. the relucant stairs to sch and overhead bridge of ngee ann is killing me.. hahas..

jus like honey misses bee~ dear i miss u =) if only if u faster come back, i can complain my napfa to u, got lots of things to talk to u and tell u.. sept faster come k

2008-07-09T23:17:00.002+08:00

napfa tml.. had a talk wif my son jus now.. pour out all my unhappiness to him.. hmm well.. yea think carefully lo.. and i will..

pissed off wif those who is so strong in winning and do all means to score for HERSELF! dun u know group project aint this type of way de ok! grr.. no wonder u got no frenz at all! idoitic.. so cunning and so BITCH! thank-you-you for ur peer assessment for us.. and shut ur mouth up, if not necessary, DO not ever speak and u hav no right to comment on how we present for our presentation and blame everything on us and took all the credit k.. coz u did the project and presentation sucks too.. go bang the wall ok.. f*

3 weeks without any source of communication again.. we two really having a hard time yea.. very looking forward to ur arrival but how long would it be? =( blessed him when he's out in the middle of the sea ok.. =)) kinda worry he will suffer terrible sea sick.. im still waiting for u, my dear.. muacks..

school had been a motivation, especially during the third yr of poly and last sem, really make me feel like pon-ing and take own sweet time to sch.. never been early .. hahahas.. but looking at the time passing so fast, soon attachment alr and im gonna miss sch life, miss the times going to sch and taking 852.. hope time could jus stop at the moment i wan it to be.. can i? =( and i believe in fate.. shall brain wash me ok..

if only fate could let me get to know the right person in life

2008-07-06T23:12:00.003+08:00

jus came hme from work.
tired.
ytd worked till 1am!
guess every saturday will be like that.
yea!~ jus got pay.
its hard earned money ok.
sweat.
hours of standing.
kinda worth it de.
=))

tml lab again! (not again~ grr)
thinking next whole week i very busy, makes me more tired arh.
anyway, feel excited to see my dear reply in email le.
although we r like so far apart,
but i know he misses me and i misses him too~!
i wonder if other couples oso got soooo long never communicate each other.
without any sources of communication or network can be real bad.
i mus be very very patient.
luckily i am =)

2008-07-05T02:41:00.003+08:00

='( i dunno wats happening between both of us.. maybe im really tired... tired of all the concern, advises, tired of jus nagging and reminding him.. argh! our future so far apart, but i wanna it to happen.. but how?! wif so many obstacles and disagreements i had and he is taking his future too lightly... totally hav no idea wat to do next.. i guess he hadn't been thinking abt it ba.. im feeling so upseh and angry and some hatred too.. i cant face this kind of background i will be undergoing wif him... im not that strong after all.. =(( someone pls enlighten me ba..

today had fun.. went out. i finally drove my daddy's car but so disappointed, very lan my driving skills.. my dad and my sis say "i wonder y u will pass.." never practise... wth is like when i no car and how do i practice?! grr.. rubbish man.. then dinner at chong pang again, which same as wat i ate ytd.. then had midnight movie wif my sis and now jus back home.. so super late, super super tired and sleepy.. hp batt flat and couldnt receive or sms from 8pm onwards.. -.-" and now waiting for .......... ok i go slpp le.. nights everyone =)

2008-07-03T20:37:00.003+08:00

jus came back home.. went to chong pang and had dinner wif hh.. initially wanted to go rub my wrist de.. but consider that it is not very terrible, decided not to go chinese sinseh alr.. jus now pon lecture and i went off at 1pm to go vivo shopping wif frenz! hahahahas.. third yr and we are getting bad.. jus dun feel like going that lecture ba.. yay tml tml tml faster faster come =)) those who know, should know why.. **winks** hahahahas

saturday and sunday working.. sian.. got job already then i sian.. no job oso sian.. i oso dunno la... stupid mindset... how come like tat.. maybe coz pay is low.. but nvm la, better than dun hav.. shall not complain too much alright..

next week im super super busy.. and i really mean extremely busy can.. wed got wisp presentation, thurs got napfa test le, friday got ppp workshop (meaning fri from 8am - 5pm!), saturday going bintan till sunday then im back.. so pack my whole week's schedule.. which is oso a good thing.. coz finally can get to go bintan to see my sis working the bintan lagoon resort.. and im sure that im gonna relax there and hav great time there de.. thinking of sun-tanning, OMG makes me super motivated.. hahas..

dear ar.. if u happen to use comp or internet cafe at hawaii, and reading my post, call me ok... coz i cant reach ur phone.. u all shifting house, call me for more details alright?

2008-07-02T22:01:00.002+08:00

grr... becoz of u...

if there is nothing in between us, it will be perfect.. minus off our quarrels + disagreements + temper... now u r away from me, im like facing problems, sadness, happiness alone u know... its not ur fault, i noe... but somehow that "something" in between u and me will never disappear.. i dun even dare to pick up calls, fear to even think a little further for our future.. ='(

i still love u still, and tats for sure.. i tried hard to think of how to solve our problems, but often negative solutions will be out from my mind.. u r my kind of mr right.. haix.. shall see how then...

f* lor.. today presentation.. damn! nice presentation but it is ruined jus for the peer assessment. first time met this kind of people who wished to win, and no one is competing wif her OK! crazy one... i almost blew up my top... if it were last time, when my temper was really bad, WOAH i tell u ah... say gd luck to her man.. Bitch!!

2008-06-29T21:27:00.004+08:00

so awakard.. my heart is missing wif something which i cant explain.. damn damn damn... grr.. making me so pissed off wif this feeling.. lol.. i kinda miss my uncle, i noe i noe not even 100days is over.. haix.. =( ytd went out wif my sec sch mates to celebrate maine's bday.. went town and had sakura for dinner.. hope she enjoyed her bday wif us.. =)) photos other time perhaps k.. heex..
hui
i shall try not to talk so much next time... tml another day at sch.! and mus hav to reach on the dot at 9am coz got lab.. blah!

2008-06-28T00:33:00.003+08:00

yea back to wed.. really how i wish i could slap our wisp teacher.. LOL! jus read shufen blog and i suddenly remember our wishlist *slap our wisp teacher* hahahahahas...

in poly, grp members definitely will affect each other.. esp if its ur fyp.. one can be ur best fren to hang ard wif, but project wise.... haiz... cannot make it... haha so poor hh..

anyway, wed went to our SHP.. lol.. wanna see photos, link to shufen's blog alright.. coz i lazy to upload photos.. hahahahas.. so fun.. and had receive earnings on wed from my sis as she is back from phuket.. as well as korea stuffs zhi ting bought back from him.. lol.. wa really tats wat frenz r for.. =)) today stayed back for project.. after which still early and no where to go so acc fen to novena square as she waited to go to hospital to see ally.. cute as abby too.. we shopped at novena square, square 2 and had lunch over there.. there got many korea stuffs imported there.. ha

dear bought a guess wallet for me.. and which i hav to WAIT till september then received it.. super sian.. =( we r like a transparent line blocking us.. haix.. really tis time our relationship put to a test man... i jus noe that there is this period of time, 22 days and we cant contact each other at all! its like 3 weeks.. holy shit.. nice one..

jus like honey misses bee~

2008-06-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

since i logged in to blogger, might as well i jus blog..

things are getting real hard in yr 3.. i really hate it with all the stressed up projects.. damn wisp.. this module is so lame shit and totally crap.. world issues.. so wats wif all the wars and conflict which makes us do reports and presentations on it.. grr.. pissed off..

well something which brighten my day up is.... my dear jus finally called me.. gonna 2 weeks we didnt communicate at all.. wow how can i do it? but he told me he had a very bad seasick... which really make me very worried.. =( i miss him sooo much.. when will september be coming? it sounds so far and cant feel that month coming soon yet.. he reaching hawaii in one and a half day time.. tis time, i hope that time could fast forward to allow me to at least had a day spent wif him.. i really do need him when im facing stress wif my sch work.. ='( i need u, my dear.. and how i wish that tonight when i slp and awake next morning, i can get to see u straight away to hug u and u give me a peck kiss on my forehead.. =)

-awaiting for september 6th-

2008-06-20T22:35:00.003+08:00

jus now after dinner went my house downstairs the small gym for public to exercise.. i went wif my mummy and uncle.. first time exercise wif my mummy together.. hahas..
as i promised, photosss =) heex...

firstly, this one is act only.. actually she is not writing nor drawing.. hahahaha

secondly, she is jus playing and fooling ard lor.. see somemore wanna stand on the chair.. so tall liao still wanna act taller.. lol!!!!!!!!!!!

im the most guai one ok! i done the work and i draw and cut the cardboard out wif my heart and soul.. im so hardworking... oh man im so proud of myself.. lol.. so pls dun believe lotte and fen's blog.. mus believe in mine~ =D i dun tell lies.. hahahahahahahaha

oh cute little abby.. heex...

lotte, abby and me! =)

lotte, abby, me and fen

another group pic coz abby wants somemore.. hahas so cute..

cute little one really loves to take photo and she suggest to stick out tongue! hahaha..

not forgetting our red, white pink gaming devices after all our "individual hardworks" lol.. all claimed to be hardworking huh.. ha.. 3 bomberman players, anyone wanna take challenge on us? lol..

2008-06-20T14:10:00.007+08:00

BOY, i miss u so... seriously, i now then realised how much i treasured ur phone calls every night.. now every night without ur phone calls and sms-es, i really feel so empty.. ='( i really hoped u faster come back.. i promise i will cherish u and ur every little things more.. appear in front of me and give me a tight hug can?! =( every night b4 i slp, i thinking... when u were in singapore, i always quarrel wif u and throw xiao jie pi qi at u.. but always u tolerate and trying all means to make me happy.. now then i realized how much u mean to me.. my fren chat wif me and said it will be good to separate a while coz when u r back to sing, we both will know how to treasure each other alot.. which i think YA, it is true.. for me, i will treasure u alot.. boy, believe me that we will last.. coz i love him alot =)

monday went over to shufen house.. done our helicopter wif the accompanied of our pizza hut for lunch and abby! hahas.. she's very very super cute can.. especially when she take photos wif us, listening her own singing thru fen's hp.. haha.. and the way she say "no more, xie xie and.... excuse" hahahaha excuse to her own yi yi leh.. shufen so angry.. hahaha which make me n charlotte laugh till dunno how.. lol... i wanna declare based on lotte's blog post ok! hahahas.. i NEVER EAT SNAKE! i very guai de hor.. photos can be deceiving.. =P bleahs.. hahas.. the actual fact is i do the measurement and draw out the helicopter le then i watched tv.. trying to imitate abby for on-inh the tv.. hahas.. cute cute little abby.. ok la we all had done our little part.. coz me n lotte measure and draw, fen cut and test for the heli coz she's the tallest among all.. =)) its a good thing huh.. hahahahas.. photos photos when i upload from my hp to my comp ok =D

finally today im off.. i beg and irritate blue from tues to wed then she let me off on fri and sat to let me study de.. hahahas.. lame shit.. i enjoyed working there although its really very very tired to stand for 12 damn hrs..! lol.. there very fun.. can hang ard in the world of cockroach paradize.. but bo bian coz my booth there selling jelly beans and chocolates only.. of coz will lure those cockroaches here la.. hahas.. last sunday worked wif jing then for the rest of the week i worked wif the siti.. f******* lazy.. but nvm la.. i alr knew it would happen in this way.. when working, i suddenly miss the retail working life wif erin.. thinking back the days at mintmark &co. at raffles place..... =)) we can talk everything under the sun..

i miss u real badly,
-awaiting for september 6th-

2008-06-14T14:32:00.011+08:00

anyway, since i hav time and feel like putting up photos, *ta-da*

Michelle bday

the girls and bday girl

the guys

And finally, the group...

Me and dear...

2008-06-14T13:50:00.002+08:00

F***! ok pardon me for scolding tat.. im REALLY felt so irritated by jus this phone calls! from china again.. wanna ask those stupid survey questions and cheat on ppl's money again by saying wat u won this lucky draw and BLA BLA BLA... a bunch of bitches.. when can they stop all these noneneses ar?! i thought its had been a long period of time and now they come back again to call ppl and fucking ask those stupid survey.. come on leh.. im wondering which company would employ them in other country jus to make phone calls and cheat on ppl's money.. im not one of those stupid ok!!!!!! nah buey.. go and eat shit man.. somemore so early in the afternoon of my weekends and i ans my hp and they still can using that kind of pros**** voice and high pitch one to say "H-E-L-L-O" draggy manner.. damn it..!!!!!! so pissed off..

2008-06-08T00:07:00.003+08:00

b4 common test, our dear shufen drive to sch and fetch us ard during lunch breaks.. =D hahas.. and yea~ finally exams r over.. but wth thurs brought desktop and laptop to acer.. felt so empty at home w/o any comp.. hahas.. and my damn laptop is still at acer! lol.. they having problems fixing my laptop man! tell me put there then when ok then inform me.. oso not sure how long.. hopefully they dun jus throw my laptop ard at there! hahas.. thursday met juan, jing, her bf and siwei for dinner.. intially wanted to go nyp to attend lecture wif siwei de.. coz of... hahahahas.. me n her secret.. =P anyways, had a simple kfc dinner wif them then chattings.. saw jj koh at northpoint, but i din recognize him.. hahas maybe coz he said he din wear specs n cut short hair? lol dunno eh.. i was still wondering all the white tee guys are ns ones.. and indeed he's one of them.. hah..

Friday went shopping wif maine, juan, jing, her bf and zhong ting at city hall.. went some interview for the suntec IT fair.. PS: ANYBODY GOING FOR SUNTEC IT FAIR, PLS SUPPORT ASUS laptop OK! hahahahahahs.. but dunno can earn a not.. like very bo hua leh.. hmm.. i'll see how first.. see they working wif me a not.. like so fun like tat.. hahas..

today i'm guai.. went northpoint wif my family.. lol.. counting down 13weeks.. he's on the way to a city in america, which i dunno wat name.. ok im starting to miss him le..

"absence makes my heart grow fonder".. slowly i will understand tis phrase le..

-awaiting for september 6th-

2008-06-02T22:17:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 20th MONTH

ANNIVERSARY TO US! =)

heex.. omg he's damn sweet okay.. hmm well although u r out sailing, but really so touched wat u've done.. hahas.. muacks..

the every little small detailed effort and things u've done, really make me love u more each time.. i will be waiting for u to be back to celebrate our 2yrs anniversary together de.. =))

-awaiting for september 6th-

2008-05-31T21:50:00.003+08:00

ytd went out wif my dear. he morning left le.. haix feeling so sad and cant bear ytd night when we were at esplanade chatting, our usual place.. but however, ns ma.. bo bian.. and gd for him coz he can get to travel at japan, hawaii, brunei and still got dunno where.. 3 months.. so long yet so short.. okok though like so lonely for the weekends but still got benefits coz i can study for exams ma.. hahas.. so worried for him.. but he promised me he will come back in one piece.. MUST HOR! =) gonna miss him badly man..

monday rps and wed mndt paper.. sian.. holidays i shall find days to go shufen house n play.. haa.. lotte oso wanna go play piano.. i leh? wanna play wif abby.. hahaha.. kids r so cute..

-awaiting for september 6th-

2008-05-25T15:58:00.002+08:00

i thought i could be strong, but i jus couldnt.. the fact that i needed some time to accept and faced the reality is so difficult and terrible for me.. it is tough for me in my life.. nothing had been good for my family in this year.. i felt so heartbroken and i could also feel so terrible and pain in my heart when i saw my family teared. especially my mum, the other time i saw her so sad was when my grandma passed away.. that time i was still so small.. pri sch.. y muz i be a grown up now to witness it.. haix.. i really cant bear..

anyway,thanks guys, for all the concern.. my beloved friends, i love u all.. =) i guess i really need some time to get over it and be my normal self again..

I'll always remember u in my heart always, the love and care u shown to my family and me. i love u, my beloved uncle =)

2008-05-17T17:55:00.003+08:00

omg.. hahas i really cant imagine it.. i actually pass my tp and got my car license ytd le! first time pass.. quite surprise coz many of the people i heard, take private pract, very hard to pass as those testers will be more strict.. but ok ar.. i think my tester is nice =) exceptional.. and i buy my pink psp slim from zhiting le.. pink pink pink.. cant wait to get the stock from him and he come my house to put games.. can play le for the three months while my dear is away.. hehex.. i super happy can.. ha.. coz i pass le.. but pass oso no use ar.. think back like so funny coz no car to drive.. hopefully my daddy come back from australia, he will lend me his car to drive ba.. if not then gd game le lor.. muz rent when got festivals.. hahas.. but anyway, going jurong to hav the those bday treat.. meeting zt later ba.. tata everyone~

n PS: dear, im gonna miss u very muchhhhyyyy..

2008-05-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

i really felt very sad, depressed, down and everything i can ever think of is sadness.. maybe i should grow up wif all the regrets and thru all these regrets, i will grow more mature, more understanding, learn how to cherish and treasure more of my closed and loved ones ard me and .... basically to be a better person.. =(( felt like crying, for some reasons.. ='(

i've decided not to go for overseas attachment le, coz of many factors and reasons to consider.. now, my only wish is i am able to pass my coming tp for the first time.. i really need a license badly coz of some reasons.. i really need to do many things b4 this month end wif a car.. not that im materialistic, but somethings i fear.. i really hope and pray hard to god this time.. haix.. wat am i thinking man.. SILLY DORA, PLS DUN DROP TEARS ALRIGHT, STILL HAV TIME...

i love my family, especially my two closest uncles =))
【shinu-hodo-aishiteru】